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read my profile sign my guestbook Name: Meredith Interests: i enjoy the simple things in life. art, writing, photography, dance, music, bob marley, peace, marijuana, newports, vodka,and love. Expertise: where my sistas at? -BARFBRAINS just ask. Message: message me AIM: neonwastelanddd Member Since: 5/28/2007

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Monday, February 02, 2009

Drowning

Your voice is drenched in lies like
Your lips in morphine,
My heart in denial,
Your body in ecstasy

The lust blinded me.
Your body distracted me.
This month long wet-dream took over me.
All these things eventually broke me.

You were a spider weaving
your web of lies in your bed.
I am the prey
I could have escaped,
I could have lived,
I could have been free from you.

My feelings grew deeper and deeper
Our lust stronger and stronger
My heart heavier and heavier
Your conscious louder and louder

I was in too deep,
almost drowning in the infatuation.
There was no backing out now.
My love for you could not be subsided.

I'm standing on my toes now,
my nose barely breaking the surface.
I only have a few moments left before I'm completely under.

Someone call a lifegaurd

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Monday, November 26, 2007

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New Update!!
LEAVE LOVE

Help me forget.

Darling dearest, please look at me.
Look at this damn ugly mess
you created, played with, and left behind to rot.
Don't you remember my sweetheart?
You walked away, leaving me
with your phantom embrace and

your pitying brown eyes.
But I couldn't forget you so easily,
Could I?
Yes, my poison, I'm drowning in
The sea of second thoughts, in

that corner of your room,
Crushed by your gravity.
I'm trapped in that room, entangled
In your sheets, still lost in the
Sweet secrets of your mouth, in the
Laughter of your brown eyes.
Your beautiful, murderous brown eyes.
So look at me, you beautiful
Silver-tongued-son-of-a-bitch,
Watch as I drown in my tears
In my insanity.
I hate, I hate

I love you.

And I'll never forgive myself for it.

-(Fly2TheSkie)

A sudden rush that made my insides blush; my brain crush.
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It's over, I'm glad. I fucking hate you for what you did to me.

ohdamn-1.jpg sexy photography image by tigerlilly1192

I love you.
You use me.
I need you.
You bruise me.
A bitter sweet infatuation.
A sick addiction to self mutilation.
You destroy me.

gasmask.gif GAS MASK image by zeo1

My door is always open for you.

I always wanted to be yours somehow. I loved you so much before, but never as much as I do now.

When you'd cry I'd wipe away all of your tears. DID THAT MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU?

I'd rather wake up beside you, and breathe that old familiar smell.
making out. by hottfff.

He ate my heart.

You left stains on my sheets, you left stains on my soul.

I'm breathing for you, that's all I know

Silly me for trying to answer a question with an answer. But I'm all wornout by now: out of your league, out of stamina, out of energy, out of patience.

RaunchyPink.jpg Raunchy Pink image by Kiarralu13

"My middle finger won't go down, how do I wave?"

Eminem.jpg EMINEM image by nathanbear

All I need is love. Forgiving love, All around love, Sunshine and flowers love.

You can count on us not happening at all.

Sit in the shower until you run out of hot water.

It really is a shame to have to wait till tomorrow.

You were the one, but I can't spit it out now. The date's been set.

If I offended you? Good. Cause I still don't give a fuck.

because that is BEAUTIFUL, and that is generous

I wonder what we have when we're not pretending

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You're fine exactly as you are. Your curves, words, flaws, strengths, thoughts. You don't need to change. You aren't ugly, fat, stupid, or worthless. You are you.

We are unusual and tragic and alive.

There was no turning back now, and I loved it.

i think i made you up inside my head

oh god. it's so wonderful to get out of bed, smoke too many cigarettes and drink too much coffee.

the day Virginia cracked her feet on the ocean floor, she declared that life would be worth living if only the koi pond were a little bit deeper.

why'd you have to go and let it die?

what's so simple in the moonlight, in the morning never is

beautiful veins and blood shot eyes

i've got a flask inside my pocket,
we can share it on the train

all we need is just a little patience

with a lit cigarette hanging out
of your perfectly shaped mouth,

you're a dangerous combination of beauty and poison

your lips drip with morphine

all they'll see is me digging your grave.

our bodies writhed in a month long wet dream.

And when morning breaks promise, be the first touch of aurora to brush against my skin.

be the unbidden thought that follows me to bed.

you're beautifully insane. Intoxicatingly tainted. just my brand.

So you think you can tell a smile from a veil?

we're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl

i want to be a song. i want you to sing along and i want you to choose me to be on the tip of your tongue.

I am a series of disjointed sentences strung together like glass beads in a necklace that you wear on the weekends.

your voice isn't perfect, but it's all i need.

i miss the rush of your skin

my thoughts linger on naked figures

you cast me under your wicked spell

exchanging body heat in the passenger seat

you are the brightest little firefly in the jar

I need you, so badly

winter came and left the autumn leaves behind. along with everything you and him once had

your pulse in my chest will die.

damn this pain. almost beautiful in it's intensity

you float like an angel, your skin makes me cry

every tanline, a guideline, for my fingertips to find

if you walk away i'll walk away. first tell me which road you will take. i don't wanna risk our paths crossing someday.

i love you. and if that means crying every night, then that's what it means.

when everything is lonely i can be my own best friend.

the mask i polish in the evening, in the morning looks like shit

i know you have a heavy heart, i can feel it when we kiss. so many men stronger than me have thrown their backs out trying to lift it.

we might die from medication, but we sure killed all the pain.

the reasons have all ran away, but the feelings never did.

I'll cut this line to pass some time..

you're gonna go far, kid

we made love on the living room floor. from the noise in the background of the televised war.

60ekland.jpg girl in car smoking image by Hailey_Nicole_2006

cuteoutfit.gif hippie girl image by SingErin13

if it's not okay, then it's not the end.

we accept the love we think we deserve

erin012-thumb.jpg gas mask image by SmashleyAboobs

pulp_fiction.jpg Uma image by the_childcatcher

with two feet on the dashboard

peace.

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